Shut Off

The only importance  of the past is the study of feasibility. From observations of the past, from mistakes already made and done, we are somehow able to calculate for corrections, and spare the chance of a better future.

It never occured to me that even things you've forgotten about yourself can affect you greatly. They say forgetting is a psychological manifestation; a way to shut off that which inflicted darkness in your life. In short, your body makes you forget the bad things in life. How selfish.

This fact is making me quite tense. I can't remember much of my childhood, I can't recall much bad memories -- only happy ones. My life can't be that perfect and meaningless, there must be something I've shut off. And this scares me because even the darkest things that go unseen have a great diming effect on the future. It just worries me. 

19.8.07 12:58