College Trauma

If worst comes to worst, some people may not know exactly what they may be doing in the near future. The present may be so sure for us, but the future may have a little twist. My father took up Economics at the University of the Philippines. He ended up as a director for films. And before most of us succumbed into this more mature world, we were dreamers. Surely, most of us, as children, dreamt to be astronauts at one point or another. Personally, i dreamt to be a vetrenarian; but now I dream of being one who contributes to our sick society through writing. The time span from how we dreamt as children to how we dream now surely went through considerable changes and choices. We know change is inevitable, but we never really know its outcome. What we will be doing is inevitable, we just don't know what exactly that will be. Its not just because people are collectively fickle, its because we simply don't know.

College scares me, and yet it excites me. My choices seem to be required to revolve around something. They always seem to have the need to be counted for. I feel potential growing in me--potential that I never thought I could achieve. I feel I'm about to undergo a drastic change, and I have to change my outlook on things. From that,  I choose not to be insecure of not knowing what I'll be doing, although I know I will come across some choices that will turn out all wrong. I choose not to be overwhelmed by defeat or my past failures, because, like death, not knowing is natural. I choose not for weakness to conquer me, because I know I have some potential. I choose not to cower over the thought of college not because I may not know what I may be doing in the future, but because I know who I naturally am, and I know that I can be more than that.

6.8.07 10:27